Ever feel like an idiot?!?

I could of titled it, “I’m Back!” But how predictable and utterly not true. It’s the disappointment at the revelation that I have let years go by and done no significant writing. No offense, but I don’t write for you. I write for me. I write because somewhere in getting it out, I begin to see the trace of God. Like glitter on a page, I splatter but He laid the glue of the message you will read.

Somehow in my ramblings, mumbo-jumbos and blah blah blah, I pray you hear God’s message.

I’m sorry I haven’t done what the voice I cannot hear with my ears has been telling me to do. That apology is to God and I’m back at the beginning. Feeling like an idiot. Here I am again.

The good news is apparently 2 years ago when I was writing I wrote some pretty great blogs that I was too afraid of what my audience might think. I’m a hot mess, seriously. When you read your own writing that you can’t remember writing, its a pretty cool experience. It’s like writing letters to yourself from the past yet eerily they reflect your future.

Good news is that I’m back logged with about 10 bite sized articles and I will begin to release them.

A little info on where I’ve been. I had a dream about 5 years back that a small, narrow but intense tornado entered my home full of people, did no damage but stood directly over me. I was convinced it would ruin me but then it was gone. I had my eyes closed and hunkered down as any reasonable person would do in this situation but I could hear the voices of those present. They expressed awe and I could hear the utterances like, “Look what God had done.”

I looked up what tornadoes represented and it was emotional distress. Yippee. Just what everyone hopes their dreams are full of. I’ve been in the thick of years of overdue emotional stress (you know all the stuff that you want to avoid) that has radically transformed me from the inside out. I’m not the same person who wrote two years ago and I am fired up about it!

So, there will be more to come. Thankfully, I haven’t had any more tornado dreams lately. But how oddly grateful you feel when its all over because the warmth of the sun is so radiant, so brilliant and you see everything different.

Here’s to new beginnings. The truth that anything can be made new is the greatest news I’ve ever heard! Let that sink in today.